CREATING ANEW

So this is almost week 8 for me in this quarantine and it has definitely been a ride. For the first time since this shut down I was exhausted, like I had enough of this....LOL. Seriously, though.. as a single mom, carries a within itself...provider, nurturer, disciplinarian, teacher, worrier, planner, everything. All the roles that falls in a two parent household falls on one person. For me, I can tend to live in my head so with anyone who knows about that life, mental exhaustion is heavier than physical exhaustion and I just got to that point. I don't like to say that or admit that because I'm like I don't have time for that. My daughter is dependent on me and me alone... I have a duty and a responsibility give her the best life possible while also trying to create the best life for me. And it's been four years of me trying to figure this out, and as soon as I think I do, something changes, shifts and its time to ADAPT all over again, and it can be exhausting. By no means am I complaining, I love being a MOM and I love my daughter but I have to be honest, it gets hard.

When this first started and I got laid off, I went immediately into panic mode but shortly after I was able to switch gears and find the good. I can finally get my daughter back into a schedule!!!!! I LOVE SCHEDULES AND RITUALS AND CONSISTANCY. I think they're very good for me because I have a tendency to get distracted easily so when I set goals or know that something needs to get done, it gives me a sense of accomplishment as well as keeps me on track. I noticed my daughter is the same way. We both like to make games out of things that need to be done. Like the great Mary Poppins said, "For every job that must be done, there is an element of fun." And I believe that. Anyway so I was like it won't be so bad.... And I will say I do love our NEW schedule! I made it to where when I go back to work I will still be able to kind of follow it. With that I myself, have created A NEW schedule for myself that I can also continue once things are up and running and I LOVE IT. It just got me thinking that while everyone is wanting for things to go back to normal, I believe it's a great time to CREATE a NEW NORMAL because in a lot of ways the way things were are not going to work when once things are up and running again. This time has changed us all.. hopefully for the better, and I really feel that this shock to the system was meant to wake us up to a new system that is getting ready to be in play. Just like with a new computer or a new phone, there are updates that need to happen in order for the device to operate at it HIGHEST capacity. I know us iPhone and MAC users can attest to this...if you update the new software on an old device when an new iPhone comes out.... your stuff is gonna be glitchin' and slow and have all kinds of issues because what was once new is now old and can't keep it. ADAPT, ADAPT, ADAPT. I took a strengths finders test a few years ago and thankful this was one of my strengths... the ability to adapt. And in this day and age I feel like this are changing so quickly that we can't live in our heads, which is going to cause us to be WEIGHED down but its time to go with the FLOW and CREATE a NEW FLOW...the FLOW that works for YOU. I love how Oprah says you know when you're in the FLOW...you just know The spirit the soul, the body, the mind work together!!! ALIGNMENT. That's my intention for the rest of the year, I just decided. ALIGNMENT it's always a goal but now it's an intention......YASSSSSS.I just made MYSELF excited. LOL. Loves, I hope you are not so anxious to get back to the OLD but are EXPECTANT to CREATE ANEW.